They feast on the rich food of your house; from your delightful stream you give them drink. For with you is the fountain of life, and in your light we see light.Psalm 36:9-10
There is a placid stream that flows from the right side of the Temple, from the side of Christ. Out of the ardor of His love, from the depths of His goodness, our Lord, our beloved Rock was struck and we can quench our thirst from the wellsprings of our Savior. Gazing into these life-giving waters, we now see our true image reflected, our very identity.
This identity is not found in people’s perception of us, or even in our own regard for ourselves. People are fickle, and we are inconstant. Our worth is indeed so much more than that.
Our value is found in God, in what He thinks of us.
Our value is found in the mind of God, in the Heart of God, our essence is found in the God who made us and redeemed us.
The reality is that we are loved, infinitely, completely, ardently, loyally. We are loved in the all-consuming flames of God’s love.
We may not feel this love, this value. Our self-esteem may lack the ability just now to perceive of our true identity. It may take time, it may require many visits to the Wellsprings of the Savior, when we will allow ourselves to peer deeply into His depths of love and begin to believe that we are so precious to God.
The mystical poet Caryll Houselander has written:
We go through life with dark forces within us and around us, haunted by the ghosts of repudiated terrors and embarrassments, assailed by devils, but we are also continually guided by invisible hands; our darkness is lit by many little flames, from night-lights to the stars. Those who are afraid to look into their own hearts know nothing of the light that shines in the darkness.Quoted in The Spiritual Path of Caryll Houselander, p. 102
Do not be afraid to look into the heart! For too long we have believed the infernal lie that we are unloved, that our identity is found in the whims of ourselves and others. Can someone so precious be regarded in so intemperate a fashion!
No! Our identity is rooted in the very heart of God! Our identity is found in the eternal fidelity of his love!
By those ‘invisible hands’, those many ‘little flames’, those ‘night-lights’ along the way’ – those graces that God sends us through people and situations, we begin to have the faintest glimpse of God’s perception of us.
By faith, we can realize what we are worth in his eyes! We are valued at the very price of the Precious Blood of the Son of God! We are loved eternally, and our identity is found in the very Heart of God!